Beberapa hari ini aneh sekali..
Ga ada kamu…
Secara kamu lebih jauh dr biasanya..
Biasanya paling nggak bisa denger suaramu ngomelin aku yg males mandi…
Eh.. beberapa hari ini nggak..
Baru beberapa hari… Rasanya sudah lama sekali…
Omelin gih…
Omelin aku lagi…
Tanyain gih…
Tanyain aku lagi…
Dari ujung rambut, sampe jung kaki, aku rindu…
Dari omelan nya, tanya nya, cerita nya, nyanyi nya, canda nya, aku menunggu…

Kemaren untuk kedua kali nya aku selesai membaca Perahu Kertas…
tetep saja rasanya asyik…
berasa banget…

Kugy, Keenan, Luhde, dan Remi

Menyentuh sekali…
Ga salah deh klo aku dr dulu memburu buku ini.
**Thanx buat Mr. Oxy yang baek hati nya ma mengirimkan nya

Recomended buat di baca pokok nya
Tadinya aku mau cerita disini…
Tapi akhir nya aku malah kehabisan kata-kata, bingung mau mulai dari mana…

Mau baca lagi ah…
sambil nunggu seseorang pulang

Taukah kamu, aku ingin tetap berhubungan baik denganmu
Taukah kamu, apa yang aku rasakan
Taukah kamu, yang memberatkanku selama ini

Kenapa seolah kamu begitu membenci keputusan ku

Sering kali aku bilang ini untuk kebaikan bersama, kamu pasti meralat nya “Baik buat mu…”

Apa se arti rasa lelah yang sudah aku jelaskan buat kamu?
harus nya kamu jangan cuman mikirin apa yang kamu rasakan…
Coba juga lihat kondisi ku dulu, sampe aku membuat keputusan demikian

Aku ga berniat buat ngancurin hati kamu,
aku ga berniat buat kamu kecewa
aku juga ga niat buat kamu sedih
apa lagi menghancurkan dunia mu
Dan kamu bilang “ya, kamu sudah…”

dulu aku yang sedih, aku yang kecewa
untuk mengobati luka ku itu lah aku ambil keputusan ini
Semata -mata untukku…
Karena aku merasa cukup

Luka mu suatu saat akan sembuh, itu pasti
Hanya, sampai kapan kamu tidak menerima kondisi ini
Sampai kapan kamu akan merasa tersakiti atas apa yang aku lakukan
Sampai kapan kamu membuatku merasa menyakitimu
sampai kapan kamu akan tidak baik-baik saja

Mungkin ini bukan hal yang kita inginkan sebelum nya
Mungkin ini jauh dari rencana kita sebelum nya
Tapi bukan berarti ini bukan hal baik buat kita

Apa yang bisa membuatmu baik-baik saja…

Is it the real meant to us?

Today is tired day
So many question about it
I don’t want to share with them
Actually I don’t want to share it
But he makes it shared
It’s okay…
Why? how? are you sure? they asked
Then i juzt keep smiling to them
“Maybe it was better action for us”, I answer them
Hard for me of course
4 years we spent, then juzt end like this
someone feel so sad for us,
she juzt never imagine it will happend to us
me too…
It makes me okay, when I know you fine
Means that you better
I wonder it will be hard, but I will never delete our story
juzt keep it in my mind
Maybe i can use it sometimes, juzt to remind

I never know I could hurt like this

Even i have told you what i feel
I never wonder it gonna be like this
I think it was forever
Till I’m on my limit
I wonder I could stay, with all my strenght to keep it
But I know it was wrong, when i realize I stand up all alone
Without you, without your help
Ask me to stay, then I would stay
But you let me go, i would go
To face what really meant to us
I told you, I need you
I told you, I want you
Have you think of it
I need your careness, to make me sure you are there for me
You say it just my way to make it so dramatic, it wasn’t
No, you don’t know how was i feel
I want you home, and I was so disappointed coz you don’t
it was real, not just to make it looks dramatic
To much you say “no” for me
and each of it, make me wake up it doesn’t like before
am I asking you too much?
I ask you something, not forcing you
My wish, not a requirement
Remember hundred days we spent together
nothing you wouldn’t do for me, used to be
What you meant to me?
What you want?
What you think of me?
What you expect from me?
I was too tired
I’m not escaping from you
I’m not leaving you
I’m not give up
I’m not try to forget you
I juzt stay on my way
I pretend like it’s gonna be okkay
Wishful it’s gonna be okkay
No one will angry to you, when you have no time for calling, or at least sms
No one will asking you to sing in closed day
I will never ask you for anything, it was burden you i wonder
It’s so amazing time to spend so many day with you
I’m so grateful I found you
I’m sure you will be fine
Thanx for the moment we shared
Thanx for every moment we spent
Thanx for everything you gave to me

so much thanx
We are friend now, as good as before…

Karena Facebook lagi

Bisa ketemu temen lama….
kemaren sempet ngobrol ma Sasha di Fesbuk. Doh, kangen beneran ma dy. Sayang dia udah balik lg ke Bogor buat kuliah. Sedangkan liburan kemaren kita ga sempet ketemu. Yah… jadi nya kita cuman berbagi cerita liburan kemaren…

Bahas mulai acara temen2 ngumpul buat temu kangen, sampe acara halal bihalal keluarga besar LA NEGSATU. Benar-benar sangat disayangkan aku ga bisa dateng ke acara2 mereka sama sekali.

Sampai di suatu titik, Sasha cerita klo dia ketemu Mr. Kai. Aku belom pernah cerita ttg Mr. Kai ini di blog ini . “hehehe… Jadi keinget yg dulu2 ya lyv..”, kata Sasha. Emang, aku jd keinget kisah dan cerita di masa lalu… pengen ketawa rasanya klo inget kita bertiga, Aku, Sasha, ma Kiki sama2 ngerasain cinta pertama… wkwkwkwkw…

Ada kesedihan, ada kebahagiaan, ada perselisihan, ada pertengkaran, ada persahabatan… semuanya lengkap…

Sekarang klo kita lagi cerita2 mengingat masa lalu gitu, kita hanya bisa mentertawakan… Yang tersisa dari itu semua adalah kenangan, khusus untuk Aku, Sasha, dan Kiki

Grateful

When we first talked to each other
I knew we would never apart.
Our best time together has kept on growing
And I’ll be here for you to the end.

You listen when I have a problem
And help dry the tears from my face.
You take away my sorrow
And put happiness in its place.

We can’t forget the fun we’ve had
Laughing ’til our faces turn blue.
Talking of things only we find funny
People think we’re insane-If they only knew!

I guess this is my way of saying thanks
For catching me when I fall.
Thanks once again for being there in my life
And being here with me through it all.

P.S : @Mr. Oxy

10th grade
As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called “best friend”. I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn’t notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said “thanks” and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.

11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn’t want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said “thanks” and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.

Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick” she said; he’s not going to go well, I didn’t have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as “best friends”. So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn’t think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said “I had the best time, thanks!” and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.

Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn’t notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, “you’re my best friend, thanks” and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.

A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say “I do” and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn’t see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said “you came!”. She said “thanks” and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.

Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my “best friend”. At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn’t notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love him but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too…` I thought to my self, and I cried.

P.S : Just copy paste from http://www.boardofwisdom.com/ something that we need to be musing

Kapan hari ada seorang temenku yang tiba-tiba berkata “aku tuh ga suka banget sama olyph…”, sambil nunjuk aku.
Saat itu kita lagi ada di Alfamart, belanja buat keperluan ospek. Otomatis aku langsung nanya ke dia “what.. knp?”.
Dengan lugu nya dia jawab “soal nya aku kalah putih dr kamu”…
wkwwkwkkw… aku langsung ketawa ngakak denger nya…
Dia hanya ga tau gmn usahaku biar ga terlihat item2 amat
Mungkin juga saat itu ada pengaruh pencahayaan juga makanya aku keliatan putih…
aahh… yang jelas putih nya aku ga karena kerendem baiklin (byclean)

Ugh.. badan pegel semua….
kmren abis berjuang menyelamatkan diri dr incaran korban di cemplungin ke kolam
eh.. tetep aja gagal… tetep aja nyemplung…
basah semua…
lenganku sakit juga…
wew… kolam nya kotor juga…
wew… parah…
perjalanan pulang sekitar 1 jam…
sampe kost udah setengah kering jadi nya
tapi menggigil selama perjalanan pulang…